I'm stuck. I hit a wall today that I just can't seem to get over - this whole finding a balance in medical school thing is much harder than I thought. I figured the first few weeks would be an adjustment but I thought maybe after the first set of exams, I would find my groove. Instead I feel like I'm constantly balancing five stacks of dishes, trying to keep them all in the air and not hit the ground.
When I work on one area of my life, all I can think about is how the other areas of my life are suffering. For instance, I spend x amount of hours on Anatomy review which means I'm behind that many hours in Scientific Foundations. If I take the time to workout, I'm missing study hours. When I study, I end up neglecting my health, time with friends and family, or my duties in my club involvement. When does this all become manageable?
Sometimes I feel like taking a year off after college really crippled my work ethic. Despite working long, hard hours as a CNA, I didn't really have many other obligations. I forget how to use my time wisely and work efficiently (like I said in my latest vlog). I just feel really overwhelmed and don't know where to start!
On top of that, I feel like my classmates and I spend an enormous amount of time complaining and commiserating. It can get downright depressing after a while. I hate being whiny for many reasons. 1) I chose this path. Medicine is what I've wanted to do my whole life so there's no reason for me to sulk about making sacrifices and working hard. Reaching my goals isn't going to be easy. 2) Complaining about everything makes me feel weak, like I can't handle it or I'm not mentally tough enough to get through this. 3) It isn't productive.
So...in other news, tomorrow is FRIDAY! (And I still haven't done my day in the life post. I meant to do it Monday or Tuesday but I forgot about halfway through the day (see...can't keep up with anything!). I even got dressed up for ya'll!
Oh yeah, and Sweatember is back in action! (BTW, loved the lady who suggested "Rocktober" for my next challenge).
I haven't made much progress since August...very frustrating. Help me! I need good arm workouts!
It was my second time doing Les Mills Body Pump at the gym and I like it so far - skimpy on the weight though :(
And a pretty run along the White River/canal area in downtown Indy!
Tonight, I went to a circuit training class which turned out to be an hour of tabata workouts. If I'm unable to walk tomorrow, I won't be surprised! It was INTENSE and not at all enjoyable. I felt like I was being yelled at the whole time which is only ok when Jillian Michael's does it!
Nick is coming up to Indy on Saturday so we can do some more wedding planning - we're hoping to have a date nailed down and venues here very soon!
Last but not least, 2 MONTHS until my first 10k with my girl, Marcy at The Mustache Diaries! I can't wait to meet her and to do this thing!