Disclaimer: Stick with me. This post is long and pretty personal but it's something you might relate to.
Over the years, I’ve thought long and hard about why it has taken so long for me to get to a place where I genuinely want to change and do so in a healthy way - no miracle wonders, fad diets, or insane routines - just plain and simple healthy eating, workouts, and dedication.
|Up and Down - 1. Senior in HS 2. Sophomore in college 3. & 4. Senior year of college|
Now for the good news. Unlike all the other times that I’ve tried and failed to lose weight, I’m finally aware of the mental games I’ve been playing with myself my whole life. I realize it’s going to be a hard battle of constantly reminding myself that it’s going to be worth it. My hard work IS going to pay off but I have to be willing to try. And I have to learn to love myself no matter what the weight on the scale is. Baby steps, Heather.
Was I the biggest girl in the room? Probably. Did I feel awkward and anxious? Absolutely. But did I survive? You bet...and I really, really enjoyed myself! It was the most gratifying feeling to see the beads of sweat pouring off of me for the entire 60 minutes (granted I had some help from the 95 degree room). And aside from a few inversion-like poses, I did a damn good job of keeping up too! I even signed up for a student membership for the rest of the summer.
Now I want to hear from you guys!
Have you ever felt like this?
What inspires you to let go of your anxiety and fear?